Breath of Fresh Air

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Break on Through

on January 21, 2016

paddleboard yoga in Colorado We all have things we want to do. And then of course there are the things we already do. So when something new comes along that disturbs our delicately (UN)balanced routine, we reassess. We reprioritize. And sometimes we sacrifice: we accept the not now-s and the next times that we promise ourselves; filing our futures’ back burners and all the “one of these” days.

Unsupervised, life can be a chaos of could and should and would on a trampoline of have to. It’s only a matter of time until something bounces off. All our good intentions and attempts at accountability sometimes can’t fit into the amount of time in a day.

This conversation isn’t new. I have talked before about choosing something over nothing and changing our conditions to allow for will over won’t. Finding this new space, this middle, has served me well, and I truly believe I fit more life (aka joy, engagement, and meaningfulness, my [un]holy trinity) into this past year because of it.

My magic middle was a way to bend time and I made (more and more of) the most of it.

But it’s no secret that when you bend something too far it breaks. And so sometime softly something gave up space to make room for my more, leaving something in me unsettled.

My head didn’t see it until my soul started to feel… slow. Then I realized what went missing: I had gone from practicing yoga 2-3 times a week to once a week maybe. This took a toll; my body, mind, and spirit missed the peace and energy my practice generated. This left me too depleted and too full all at the same time. Without yoga, I wasn’t breaking out of the world and into the part of my brain from where all these words come from. There wasn’t enough replenish or release.

I assumed I had gotten stuck in the traditional time trap – too much to do and not enough time to do it in. But I couldn’t figure out how I was going to commit to practicing more to be my best self. My (our!) daily dance is already on a pretty thin wire.

I needed a new method to my madness; to make more of my middle without more hours in my day. I couldn’t further bend time; what had to bend was my approach.

There was an obvious answer – online yoga; yoga that could come to me when I wanted. But the idea didn’t appeal to me. I liked being in class: the attention, the adjustments, the guidance, and the community. And most of all I loved letting myself be mindlessly led to mindfulness and positioned to be patient in my present. I didn’t think I could get any of that by watching someone online, practicing alone in my living room.

But here’s the thing: I hadn’t tried it – I just took it as my truth. Not sure where I wandered off my path of purpose and into a distorted version of “I think therefore I am,” but my mind was sure shortsighted under some sort of matter. This wasn’t me working to be better than the day before; this was me forgetting flexibility in favor of fuck it. ICK! My choices were to practice online or to not practice as much, and in my right reflection that isn’t a choice – it’s a (get your head out of your ass) done deal.

So, I let go of my limits and finally tried it… AND – I liked it!

Letting go let me be aware of and break through barriers to my best that I didn’t know I had.

Letting go eliminated distraction, allowing me to discover that my motivation to practice yoga had shifted to something intrinsic – a mindfully magical thing in and of itself.

So, as it turns out, my “truth”, not my time, was my trap. My middle wasn’t (isn’t!) maxed; my perspective was predicated (prevented!) by my levied limits.

I don’t want to limit my life (so therefore I won’t J).

Accomplishing this requires breaking through assumption to awareness; from absence to accountability; from ignorance to intention.

Not later. NOW.

Where could your life g(r)o(w) if you let go of your limits?



8 responses to “Break on Through

  1. Maggie says:

    “Try it you may like it”. Sometimes, it takes Mikey to remind us to try something different. Not sure if you remember the commercial where Mikey is encouraging someone to try something different. I think as we get older, we get stuck in a rut of the usual. It takes an attitude like Mikey to try the unknown. Thanks for the reminder.

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    • jpearl19 says:

      Maggie! Of course I remember Mikey – from the Life cereal commercials :-). I like how you say we can “get stuck in the rut of the usual”. It’s odd that we don’t notice this – or maybe we do and we let it go because we think we “have to”. Thanks for reading and writing 🙂 xo


  2. Corey says:

    Love it! Thank you for sharing, Jen!


  3. A. THOMPSON says:

    Excellent timing dear Jen. Thank you. I keep puttin off getting back into yoga. I loved it. Why on Earth did I stop? Perhaps I neeed to begin again through beginners eyes.


    • jpearl19 says:

      Nina, Thanks for reading and sharing. I hope you do get back into yoga! The site I use is called Yogaglo – there is a 14 or something day free trial you should check out. You can pick classes at any level and for a spectrum of times and themes even (mind, body, heart).
      Keep me posted on how this goes for you!!! xo Jen


  4. Shannon Matin Lazar says:

    I’m finding that time is a deal-breaker. I now look for things that are just as good but more convenient, finding myself questioning the use of every minute of my day – could I have done this faster and more efficiently? I think online yoga is an answer to finding the time. Choosing the need to have over the nice to have. I’m happy you tried it and liked it, and thus, found a way to make time for what you need. xoxo


    • jpearl19 says:

      Shannon, thanks for your thoughts. I love “the need to have over the nice to have”. I am finding that time bends for me when I change my perception and remove my biases (hence enter online yoga). It’s like the appreciative inquiry approach in a way where we can look at what will work versus what won’t (and I know you can grab that reference)! xo


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